if i lay long enough

2022, entry to Dreamscape project

if i lay long enough on this moist green ground
if i just lay long enough

twenty years, hundred, millennia
i will truly become a body of moss

what if it grew on me now

why don’t you take me now
now when i surrender to you
when i lay bare skin on you

my skin
your skin
my body
your body

you could grow on me
please

you could root through my por
spores

am i not fertile enough for you?
am i poisonous while i‘m
a l i v e?

you could stop my breathing now you know

root through my nostrils
grow in my veins

but would i remember
how you led me to void
suffocated into dream





i remember now

once i dreamt that there was a plant growing from my palm
you were there too
it was you

but when did i dream it
have i really dreamt?
i feel a rush of heat

is it still in me?
if it is in my mind
it must be, too, in me

do you remember

2021

we were under the same sky
under same cloud
we are in the same shadow
is it mine

the same wind stroked my skin
your skin
mine

when we were laying there on the soft grass  
there

do you remember

we were under the same sky
under the same cloud and there

something washed through me

did you hear?

washed through me

your skin

what did you hear?

do you think i could ever fly on this wind 
i really wish so

i had a dream

did you hear?

something washed through me

your skin

i had a dream that i jumped off a cliff and the wind carried me softly
stroking my skin
your skin

do you remember?

when we were laying on the soft grass
there

something washed through me
and i felt like i suddenly remember

do you remember

the warm ray of sun on your cheek
when you came

close to the window
to see if they already arrived

how long were you waiting 

it must have felt like .. forever
it must have felt like… forever

i’m not sure if i like it

the warm ray of sun
your feet
wet and dirty

was it because we went there bare feet

there
where we were laying on the soft grass
the warm ray of sun
do you remember

it felt like … forever

i felt like i suddenly remember

something washed through me
and i felt like i suddenly remember

something washed through me

the water on my cheeks
it was rising and rising
i felt it on my neck and ears
eye lids
my skin

i cried

did you hear?

rain drop

water on my cheeks
warm ray of sun

it felt like forever

do you remember was performed in 2022 at Hátiðni Festival, Iceland, as a part of a performance of S︎ftfiskur band.